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Thursday, October 16, 2014

Gaining Way More Than the Money Spent


I am often questioned on why I pay to run.  Why pay for the misery and for something you can just go and do whenever and where ever?  People have even offered to pin a number on me and buy me a shirt.  Haha... yah they are clueless.   It's much more than that.  I love this quote:

"In running, it doesn't matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say, 'I have finished.' There is a lot of satisfaction in that."
-Fred Lebow, founder of the New York City Marathon

I had been having a really rough go at it, lots of bad run days.  I had hit a wall.  Good thing is I kept pushing at that wall.  Well last week I felt I finally broke through just a bit.  So I needed the opportunity to prove to myself I was strong enough to break that wall.  I searched for a race and signed up for a 5K about an hour away from my house and convinced my 13 year old to sign up with me. There were about 500 runners.   It turned out to be a priceless day.  Yes, I proved to myself I was on track by getting my best time yet, got an awesome shirt, great food and lots of fun after the race, but more important was the real reason I pay to run these races;


The woman who kicked butt and won the race was impressive.
But more inspiring were these runners that I am proud to say I ran with:
  • Watching my own incredible 13 year old sprint to the finish line beaming when she claims to hate running.
  • The 80 year old man I talked to while running who was running barefoot, 
  • The 80 something year old woman who was crazy fast and looked to have finished in the top 10.  
  • The 15 year old who had already in his short life had multiple open heart surgeries and finished his very first 5k that day.
  •  An 85 year old man who was the winner of over 10 Ironman competitions, 
  • The mother who sobbed as she hugged her daughter after they crossed the finish line.
  • The couple that passed me at the 3 mile mark and pushed me to stay with them just as my brain said you can't go any further.
  • The runners who were killing it and the runners who were struggling but kept moving.
  • The 499 other runners and volunteers that were out doing something good!
  • The fun time I got to spend with my daughter and watching her realize she's stronger than she ever thought!!
Lesson learned:  It's not about the money, It's about running with others and the inspiration they bring to your life that allows you to push forward and finish the race!!
I truly came away that day much richer than the money I spent!
xoxo
Tiffanee


Thursday, May 8, 2014

Does the Shoe Really Fit?

My family teases me about my shoes.  I do love a cute pair of shoes and who doesn't!!Last weekend I found a killer shoe clearance and purchased not one but two pairs of adorable shoes for $5 each.  I was in HEAVEN!!
When I tried on the gold ones my normal size was too big so I went a 1/2 size smaller, they also have a little bit higher heal than I have worn in along time and the strap around the ankle is a bit constraining, but who cares.  They are cute I will get used to it.  They give me a few inches of height and I need all I can get.  I wore them to church and they were adorable and I did just fine.
Fast forward a few days.....
Of course if you have cute new shoes you need to wear them to work.  I pulled up to work.  Parked my car and was rushing to the bathroom (it is a long drive and I drank a lot of water that morning!), when BOOM!!  I guess the parking lot figured it needed a hug.  I jumped up quickly made it to the bathroom.  While trying to keep my hand from bleeding all over the floor the back of my dress falls in the toilet.  
Can this day get any worse??
I pull myself together. Found a bandaid and got to work.  Lunch time rolls around.  Well my lunch now  consisted of smashed chips and a pancake looking sandwich.  Luckily it still tasted the same.  As I left work, I headed down the stairs, but missed the first step and down I tumbled.  Of course someone was right behind me and witnessed the whole ordeal.   I'm pretty sure I made the highlight reel of the security camera, not just once by twice for that day.  Thankfully, other than my pride I was not seriously injured.  Just some large scrapes, bruises and I'm a bit sore today.  Do I blame the shoes?  Maybe...Should I really have bought the shoes knowing they did not fit perfectly just because they were adorable and a super great price?  

This got me thinking of how often do we try to "FIT IN" just because we are told that is what we should do?  Even as adults we still face the "peer pressure".  The pressure to attend parties, quit drinking soda, cook dinner every night, plan meals, coupon shop, dress nicely, participate in every activity and the list goes on and on!

For example a group of friends gets together quite often and they invite you to go.  You really don't want to go, but feel the pressure to participate.  Now you are faced with the decision of going and being miserable or dealing with the fact that you may not get invited again. 

"Stop. Think. What do you really want to do here?
  Do that. And be okay with it.
Taking it one step further a friend was telling me how she had worked her way up in the corporate level.  She was making great money for a stable growing company and had the potential to go up the ladder even more.  She talked about how she was pressured to do things that she did not like because it was that or lose her job. Alot of the times facing the dilemma of "fitting in" or not being able to pay her bills or provide things for her children.  The pressure was extremely high.  She said she was so unhappy and eventually left that job and is currently making a lot less money, but fully admits how much better her life is now that she no longer has to face that pressure of totally 'fitting in'.
Mary Pritchard says "You need to focus on fitting out not in  Being okay with following your heart, with being who you are. So instead of wasting your energy trying to be someone you're not, focus your energy on being authentic, on being true to yourself." 

Today's Lesson:  Even though I knew that those shoes were not the right fit, I was still focusing time and effort in trying to "FIT IN" them.  It turned out to be a miserable and painful journey.  This can be applied to life.  Quit trying to just FIT IN..you will be miserable.  Be YOU..the unique, amazing and incredible person that you are! Don't care what others think or do.
 FOLLOW YOUR HEART, 
BE THE BEST YOU 
and HAPPINESS WILL FIND YOU!!
I love this quote:
“You’ll learn, as you get older, that rules are made to be broken. Be bold enough to live life on your terms, and never, ever apologize for it. Go against the grain, refuse to conform, take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path. Laugh in the face of adversity, and leap before you look. Dance as though EVERYBODY is watching. March to the beat of your own drummer. And stubbornly refuse to fit in.” 
― Mandy HaleThe Single Woman: Life, Love, and a Dash of Sass
XOXO
Tiffanee


Thursday, April 10, 2014

The Things in My Head.....

Like I said before running is my "therapy".  I use it to clear my head.  Today's run took on a new meaning to the word "clear".  Here's how it went down in my head:

 1.  Training plan says 4 miles.  Ok that is doable.
 2.  Wow who's shadow is that?  Oh my it is mine!! Scary!!
 3.  Stretch a bit...no people watching.  Take off and go.  Look strong.
 4. Why did I let my girls talk me into buying spandex running pants. My jiggles have jiggles!!
 5..  Ha.. Hill here I come...
 6.  How long have I been running?  Out of breath...can't breathe.
 7. Seriously it's only been a mile.  Gonna be a long run I can tell already.
 8.  Look how blue the sky is.. I need to pee.  Not a good time or place for that.
 9. Oh cow poop...stepping over it.  Kinda smells..
10. Feeling a little bit of a runner's high..
11. Does a runner's high really exist??
12.  Ok do I run on the highway for a ways or not?
13.  Wow that ditch is really full of water..oops I almost fell in.
14.  Car..don't make eye contact.
15.  Yes car..fat girl attempting to run.
16.  Who's stupid idea was it to run the highway anyway?
17.  OK big hill...prepare to be conquered.
18.  Slow and steady wins the race.  Don't look up..
19.  Wow I didn't realize how long this hill is, am I ever gonna reach the top?
20.  3 miles..Oh Luke Bryan you can crash my party anytime!!
21.  Car..coming really close to me.  Lady I can't get over any further. Wow almost ran over by an old lady. 
21. Hill is conquered. Hear me roar!
22.  Down hill is good.. Too bad home isn't at the bottom of it.
23.  Car turning around. Not a good time to pick this wedgie.  
24. I really don't want to go any further. Why is it I run again? and I'm considering a 10k..what am I thinking.
25. Hey there's one of the construction little flashers laying there, perhaps I should pick it up.  I could put it on my butt to signal a wide load.  Hahaha! I would have a blinking butt!! 
26. Oops how did I miss the road I needed. Guess I will go a little further and turn around.
27. Lying Eyes by the Eagles.  Good song. Wonder if there are any eagles over there.  I haven't seen many yet this spring. Perhaps I should run over that way.
28.  Runkeeper say what??? Workout complete.. 4 miles.  But I'm still a couple miles from home.  Someone want to come get me??
29.  OK feeling strong, YOU CAN DO THIS!!  Squirrel..haha I made myself look.
30.  I'm really tired.  hmmmmm wonder what made that big hole.
31. Almost to the road straight to home.  YAY!!
32.  Don't turn on that road keep going!!
33.  Wow I really like how blue my shoes are.  I really like these shoes.
34. 5 miles?  What? It has already been 5 miles.  Where did time go?
35.  Ouch I just stabbed myself. I think it is time to cut my fingernails.  
35. Oops that trip would of been bad, So glad I stayed upright!
26. I recognize that car..Keep running. Look strong until they've passed and can no longer see you.
27. Keep going!! You can do this.  If you want to run a 10k next month you need to do this..WHAT? That's next month??
28.  OK down hill stretch to home.  I can do this.
29.  I've been running for how long?  Eye of the tiger..eye of the tiger!! 
30. HOME how I love you..What? 5.89 miles..crap I gotta keep going can't leave it that close to 6.
31.  HILL!! What was I thinking!  I'm probably not going to be able to walk tomorrow.
32. WOW! Run complete.  I ROCK!! haha, not really time kinda sucked, but I did it!!

Now you understand my "clear" for today.  I think it was a bit too clear! HAHA!!  
After having such a horrible run the time before it helped to keep things light not think too much today!

Lesson for today: It is Ok to have conversation with yourself !!  HA I have nothing else today, but  ENJOY LIFE!! 
xoxo
Tiffanee



Tuesday, April 1, 2014

One Foot in Front of the Other....


I picked this hill a few weeks ago and my goal was to be able to run to the very top without walking at all.  It is a pretty good challenge. Little did I know it was nothing like the monster of a hill that faced me during the final mile of my last 5K  At one point I almost gave up, my feet slowed a bit and then my desire kicked in and I kept going.  I found the only way I could make it was to focus on my feet and make sure I was just putting one foot in front of the other and continue moving.  Not paying attention to how high the hill was or how much further I had to go and you know what...
IT WORKED!!
I survived and even ran back to motivate my daughter that she could do it!!  This small feat was huge.  
I was stronger than my brain said I was!
 A week later I stared up from the bottom of  my "goal" hill with determination and took off...
Was it easy NO, but I finally did it!! I ran the whole way and it felt GREAT!!
This got me thinking about life's challenges.  They can feel so daunting, the stress and pressures are just too much.  We can't do it.....
                   When life hands you these "HILLS"  need to focus on taking those steps, no matter how tiny they may feel, to keep moving forward.   Don't let the adversary tell you that you are weak and should quit. Keep going!! Pretty soon you'll look back and be amazed at how far you've come what you've accomplished and bask in the new found strength!  
Bonus view from the top of my "goal" hill. Big bonus!!

Lesson for today: Keep putting one foot in front of the other! That hill is not as high as you think!!
xoxo
Tiffanee

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Leading with My Heart...

This has been an incredibly crazy busy week.  I've felt that no matter how hard I try or how fast I move I cannot get ahead.  I keep falling behind in all that I do.  This morning I drug myself out of bed, got my running gear on and looked outside..RAIN and lots of it.  I wandered around for a little bit debating because I had really looked forward to an outside run.  I finally decided to just do it.  I added a hat and hit the pavement.   The rain was just a drizzle, but as I went on the drops got bigger and heavier.  I was getting soaked.  It made it hard to see.  My body became tired much more quickly. At one point my mind kept saying quit, you don't have it.  You are tired. You suck...
That is when something incredible took place...
My heart took over.  
I began to run with my heart not letting my mind (or satan) get in the way! It became a welcomed challenge.
I finished 5.12 miles with an average mile pace better than normal.
This got me thinking how often when the storms rage in upon us and things get tough, that voice enters our minds and attempts to tells us we are no good, not strong or even worthy so why keep trying.  How often do we let our mindset stop us from accomplishing a dream or anything for that matter.  It causes great fear!!
As I was coming home last night I stopped and snapped this photo.  It reminds me to look for the light in the storm.  It is there.
This is me, wet and cold, but feeling very accomplished to not only finish my run, but more importantly let my heart take over and over rule my mind's negativity. 

Lesson for today:  Sometimes we have to act in faith and let our hearts take over to get through the storms and get passed the negativity that can so often enter our minds.  Remember most of all "THE STORM SHALL PASS".
xoxo
Tiffanee



Thursday, March 13, 2014

In Those Scary Moments....

I sent all three girls out the door to school as usual this morning and then a little while received a message that I never hoped to see.
"Mom, they said Kelsee was not on the bus."
My heart stopped................................
I then pulled myself together and called the school.  I was put on hold while they checked if she was there.  It was probably only a few minutes, but it felt like forever.   Lots of things crossed my mind during that time:
What if someone took her?
If she's not there what is my next step?
Remember..What was she wearing?
When's the last time I hugged her and told her how much I love her?
and so on!!
Finally, she came back on and informed me that it wasn't that they hadn't found her, she just could not get anyone to answer the phone. She took my number and said she would call me back.  At that point I did the only thing I knew I could do...
I dropped to my knees and asked my Heavenly Father for help.
The moment I said Amen the phone rang. She was right where she was supposed to be.  My heart started to beat again and as it did the floodgate opened and the tears started to fall.  I dropped to my knees again and thanked Him for keeping her safe.  I couldn't wait for her to walk through the door, so I could hug her and tell her how much I loved her.

I had another scare this week where my mom called and I could tell in her voice something was wrong.. and
my heart stopped.....
My brother, while playing ice hockey with his family had broken his ankle and once again I did the only thing I knew to do. I dropped to my knees...
Thankfully, he had an awesome surgeon, and with some added bolts and rope (as they called it) he will have a full recovery.
     Let's say it has been an emotional week.  
In those brief scary moments I was reminded of what is really important in this life.
PEOPLE we care about and the relationships we build with them.  .  Sometimes I find myself so caught up in the trivial things of life, that I miss out on opportunities that really matter.  Like trying to get the last batch of clothes folded before I go to bed., making sure beds are made, house clean, dishes done, home cooked meal every night. Sure these are all good things, but if they don't happen all the time in the long run is it really going to matter? 
 Last night the girls and I enjoyed great dinner conversation over a bowl of  Ramen Noodles (not that I would do that all the time).  You get where I am going with this....
My point is we need to MAKE time for the people we love.  Let the trivial things go when you have opportunities to do the BEST things.
Lesson: Life is short so make sure you spend time with the people you care about let them know how you feel!! 
Needless to say my run today was full of gratitude for many blessings and for the chance to do better with my relationships, but I really would prefer no more of those scary moments!.
XO
Tiffanee

Friday, March 7, 2014

THE MADNESS!!

Back in August of 2009 my family was here to visit and my son didn't want to run this 5 mile race alone, so a few of us joined him.
(Yes that's me in the middle.)
We had a great time and have cherished memories of that day.
Who would of ever guessed that I would ever want to run a race again
then....
Last Summer 8 of us including my Mom ran the Color Run
This is us before the race started.
Afterwards.  
We had a blast!!
A week later my sister, her husband and I ran another one.  Not sure what I was thinking running a race with all college students!! Especially at registration they said to my sister how nice that they brought their mom.  HAHA!!  Not funny!  
The start was a killer hill. I thought I was going to die! Luckily I lived to tell the story! haha!!
In December I ran another one with my sweet 12 year old. It was a record cold streak.
It was 17 degrees when the race started.
It took a good two miles to finally be able to feel our hands and feet. ( Kelsee was not a happy camper!)
At one point during this race I thought, "What in the heck am I doing?'
Then the next day I turned around and signed up for another race the following weekend.
My oldest daughter was a good sport to run it with me. (Weather was perfect!)
Well the chain reactions continues as I prepare to run my first 5K of 2014 in the morning and the 2nd the following week!!
IT'S PURE MADNESS I tell you!!
and secretly I LOVE every minute of it!
Lesson: Fight that fear and sign up for a race.  You are your only competition.  The feeling of accomplishment crossing that finish line is like no other!! JUST DO IT!!!
XO
Tiffanee



Saturday, March 1, 2014

Buns of.......Beach balls?

Today I decided to jump on the treadmill and try this new interval workout I had found (trying to mix it up a bit).  As I got to my first faster pace interval I felt lots shaking from behind...yes it was literally my behind shaking.  Luckily I just started laughing because I remember a something my mom had told me years ago;
She had a dream that she looked back in the mirror and saw two beach balls. They kept following her and then at some point she realized it was her butt!!  It mortified her at the time, but we laugh about it now.  The strange thing about this dream is my mom was this thin little thing and no way did her butt look like beach balls.

Isn't it crazy how our mind works.  It can totally make us think we look totally different than we really do.  I put this theory to the test today.   We all know I was feeling a lot jiggly today (those dang beach balls), more self conscious than usual and I wasn't even around anyone. 
How sad is that!!  
There is this lady that runs the neighborhood all the time.  She makes it look easy and is a beautiful  runner.  I have often watched her and thought if I only looked like that!!  Well today as I ran I pictured myself running with her form, long legs and all (even though I have very short legs.)  I thought in my mind I looked good running.  I must have been feeling pretty good because all of a sudden I hear....MOM!!  Oops I was singing out loud.  I had forgotten all about my beach ball butt!! TEST WAS A SUCCESS!!

We start to BELIEVE we are what we THINK we are!

Not that this is new information to anyone, but a good reminder.  

Lesson today: Take this test:
 Every time you look in the mirror tell yourself how beautiful you are! 
No matter how hard it may be. 
 DO IT!! 
See what happens.
Because you truly are:
Just the way you are!!
XO
Tiffanee


Thursday, February 27, 2014

Runkeeper Say What???

Today it took me a little while to get moving (yes that dang piddle thing again!!), but I convinced myself I could go out and do 3 miles.....
        So I hit the road and some point in the journey I decided to go somewhere I had never been before.  I crossed a nice bridge, then realized this road was a gradual hill and a pretty good one.  It was a beautiful day so I kept moving.  Pretty soon I saw this:
I've always been the curious type and a bit of a rebel.  I looked at it and thought for a moment.
But only a brief moment.
Then I climbed over the gate.
It was a bit muddy, but beautiful trail through the woods.  I did pass a vehicle from the company and thought maybe he was gonna tell me to leave, but he just smiled and waved as he drove past.  (WHEW!!)  I don't know how far I went back before seeing a little side trail.  It led me down to:
I did take a a short rest at this point to take in the beauty around me.  It was peaceful and I enjoyed watching the geese that were out in the middle of the pond.
Needless to say this trail was mentally very refreshing.  I made my way out of the trail, climbed over the gate and headed back up the hill and I heard a Runkeeper cue.. I heard the time and then it said: 
 DISTANCE 3.86 miles.  
RUNKEEPER SAY WHAT???  I had no idea I had gone that far and realized I had to get back home at some point today.
I went a little further up the hill before this situation really sunk in and finally turned around.
By the time I hit 5 miles I was done!!  I didn't think I could go on. That's when another motivation was thrown in my path...
another runner!!  
He was a little ways in front of me, but I kept him in my sights.  Thinking how cool would it be to run past him!  HAHA!! (I really wouldn't of done that to him.)  I kept thinking what would Kody do?  If this was a race situation and that guy was in the lead, he would of kept him in his sights and gained ground on him until he could pass him at the end. (But I'm a long ways off of having Kody power).  The good thing is it was motivation enough to keep me moving.  Which I totally needed at that point.  I did get lucky and the other runner lives in my neighborhood and I did pass him coming down the hill towards my house (although he was walking at that point.).  
My lesson today: When you think you can't go on find something to keep you motivated.  Even if it seems silly or stupid.  Hey if it works who cares!! Sometimes you need to cross the barriers and most important:
Where ever life may take you..ENJOY THE JOURNEY!!
XO
Tiffanee

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

The Piddle Queen Award Goes to.....

The piddle award most definitely goes to ME!! I can take a simple task as getting ready for bed and take and hour doing it.  Trust me I extremely talented in that area. The dictionary defines it as:

pid·dle

  
verb (used without object), pid·dled, pid·dling.
1.
to spend time in a wasteful, trifling, or ineffective way; dawdle (often followed by around  ): He wasted the day piddling around.
Although sometimes it is nice not to rely on time or always hurry this piddling habit can be a hindrance especially where exercise is concerned.  I have found my exercise needs to be done first thing in the morning or it doesn't get done...the longer I wait the harder it becomes.
    This morning was one of those days.  I slowly got up, took about 15 minutes to even get my workout clothes on, made my bed, folded some laundry and then looked out the door to see a lady walking her dog.  She was totally bundled up; coat, hat and gloves.   I used that as an excuse not to go outside.  I would get on the treadmill instead....well after more piddling I came across this quote written and posted by a good friend of mine.  

"Do you know that feeling when you see and feel progress? When your hard work is starting to pay off and you can see results? You know that you are on the edge and are about to make a break through? Keep going, don't stop. You've come this far but you still have a long way to go. Satisfaction is the death of desire."
  \m/ Forest Carter

He must have been inspired just for me. I thought about my last post and the progress I have made and the progress I still want to make.  Thanks to him I did get on that treadmill and did complete an good workout.  During this workout I thought about his quote and came up with some new "P" words I want to have more fully in my life:
Perseverance and Progress
You can't have one without the other! They go hand in hand.  I go back to his quote "Satisfaction is the death of desire".  
Keep that fire of getting better and stronger everyday burning within you.  
Do what it takes to keep you motivated and moving forward!
What does this have to do with piddling you ask?  
I know how much better I feel and how much more I can accomplish after a workout.  Time to make it a priority over piddling..Add the perseverance and progress will happen.

My lesson today: Make that workout the first priority in the morning!! Less piddling!
XO
Tiffanee

Monday, February 24, 2014

Time for a Comparison

I have been very hesitant to share picture updates with you, but it is time.  I started this journey about 16 months ago.   I started hoping for immediate results, but found joy in the fact that I was noticing how I was getting stronger on the inside.  Results were happening, just starting on the inside of me first and it was awesome!!  It was a great realization. I slowly began to like the stronger more confident me.  It took a good year to actually physically see weight loss.   I am now down almost 30 pounds and I just bought a pair of jeans that are 3 sizes smaller than I wore in 2012 (hoping it is not just an off or miss tagged pair)!!
Finding pictures of how I looked then is difficult.  I either cropped or deleted almost all of them.  I did finally come across one that was taken with a group of friends.  Needless to say I was shocked that I actually looked like that, but at the same time never thought I looked a whole lot different until I put the two pictures side by side. People kept telling me how different I looked and I didn't believe them.
I never thought how important it would be to compare before and after pictures, but it totally is!!
Even though you may feel better, have more confidence, energy and ect, It is nice to visually see the difference and how the hard work is paying off!  
I still have a ways to go, but this was a great exercise to keep me motivated to keep moving forward one step at at time!! On a side note this comparison also made me realize I don't want to be that blonde again either! HAHA!!
My lesson today:  Take a picture. Stash it away for a few months. Take another and then compare!!
XO
Tiffanee

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Got Problems?...Just Run Away!

When problems, issues, heartache, frustrations and ect. appear in our lives sometimes it feels like you are going to be crushed.  No my answer is not to really run away from the problems, but have found that when things get to me I want to literally run!!
Lace up the shoes, 
put on the headphones 
and hit the pavement.  
This morning I laced up with a very heavy sad heart (it's been a tough week).   The first mile I thought this is not looking good. I am going to end up in tears. The second mile my mood started to change, I found myself singing along to my music (in my head of course) and by mile 3 I was ready to tackle the hill that stood in front of me. So after 5.57 miles I am actually feeling pretty good!  
Gotta love endorphins!!
It is amazing what happens once I lose myself in the fresh air and the heart gets pumping a bit.  I don't always come up with all the answers or solutions, but do find peace and end up with a much clearer mind.  I feel like I have the strength once again to conquer what lies ahead of me. My bucket has been refilled at least for the moment and I can go on!!
       My lesson today:  When life gets you down, RUN!! 
xo
Tiffanee


Friday, February 21, 2014

The Chips in the Pantry Talk to Me!

The other day I made a trip to Costco.  Spent too much money, but regardless I picked up a HUGE bag of Ruffles chips.  They are the plain ones, nothing fancy.  I would of been fine had I not eaten one while making the kids lunches for the next day.   That one led to thoughts of wanting more all night long.  In my dreams I had it all planned. in the morning I was going to put some in a baggie so I could eat them on my way to work.  Two days in a row I ate them for breakfast.  I would find myself grabbing a handful, closing them up and putting them back in the pantry, several times a day!! Not good.   I was taught a few years ago that we all have different foods that we eat that trigger things within us.  Some we can eat and stop others we cannot.  The ones that we can't stop are called  "red light" foods.  Obviously, the plain ridged potato chips are on my list! I've actually known that for a long time.  It is a junk food I need to stay away from because I cannot stop eating it!!
     When I started this journey of finding myself,  I decided I would not deprive myself and so far it has worked.  If I want something I eat it!  I have found that with this concept I normally do not over eat as much. Often I find myself stopping after a bite or two and asking myself if it is really worth the calories.  I still have my moments and my weakness though, but the difference is I try to not beat myself up and just make an extra effort to get back to what I know I need to do.
      As for that bag of chips....it finally got down to the really crushed up pieces of chips.  As I dug in I finally said ENOUGH!! I crumpled it up and threw it away!!  Yes I will eat chips again, but my lesson for today:
Don't Deprive...but leave that GIGANTOR bag of chips on the shelf at the store!!
xo
Tiffanee

Thursday, February 20, 2014

If Mrs. P Could See Me Now.....

Today it is raining so I was forced to jump on the treadmill and was surprised it was one of those very  (did I mention very) rare occasions where you look down and are shocked at the amount of time you have been on there... I was lost in my music and thoughts to really pay attention to the time.  Strictly UNUSUAL, but AWESOME in the same sense!!
    I got thinking about my running history.  I went back to 7th grade PE.  I was a short, skinny very nerdy girl just trying to fit in.  My PE teacher was Mrs. P., who consequently happened to teach both my parents in school also.  Now that says something!! Having the same teacher your parents had in school..CRAZY!!  She was this very fit, very tanned lady who lived in tight shirts and tennis skirts.  She actually looked really good for her age.  We speculated on how old she really was.  She made us wear these awful one piece PE Uniforms that zipped up the front (that's a whole other story in it's self).  
   It was within my first week she realized who my dad was (everyone knows my dad).  I had trouble with my lock..I heard, "You dad would never be that slow, you sure you are his kid."   Well I heard lots of comments from her reminding me that I was not as quick as my dad and I should be,  I considered myself athletic.  I had been on the swim team and played baseball with the boys!!  I felt she picked on my a bit and I hated going to PE.  Then it came time to run the mile.  Knowing me I probably set out to prove Mrs. P wrong that I wasn't slow, but to tell you the truth I don't remember anything about that moment except throwing up for what seemed to be hours afterwards.  
    It was after parent teacher conference a few weeks later that Mrs. P realized who my mom was and WOW did life change in PE.  She loved me then, but unfortunately the damaged was already done.  In my little mind I was slow and running made me throw up..the end!!   I never purposely just ran for fun again up until just over a year ago.  
Today as I was running along I thought if only Mrs. P could see me now!!  Sure I am still not fast, but a more confident more determined individual.  She would never believe that I can run for 5+ miles and not throw up!!   
       What makes me feel good is that I FINALLY conquered that notion she put in my head all those years ago.   A little sad that I let it stay with me for all those years. There were opportunities that I may have missed because of it.......but the good news is it is GONE NOW!!
Lesson:  Time to look within yourself and get rid of those negative words someone once told you!  Throw them out, stomp on the grounds and proudly say,
"Mrs. P if you could see me now!!" (and I can actually picture her smiling!)
<3
Tiffanee

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

There's Gonna Be Bad Days...

I am a huge competitor and that is why running is the perfect sport for me.  I am truly my own best competition.  Sometimes that is a really good thing and other times it is not.  When I first started this running thing I was extremely hard on myself when I couldn't go farther or when each run wasn't faster.  I wasn't fun not seeing improvement with each run.  Sometimes spending hours dwelling on the fact that I wasn't good  or strong enough that day.  Luckily I have grown a bit since those days and with the help of some fellow running friends realized that each day is different.  There are lots of different factors that can effect a run.  Such as:
  1. weather
  2. what you ate and when you ate last
  3. clothing issues
  4. tiredness
  5. emotional issues
  6. technical issues

That is just touching the surface on things that can cause each run to be different. Back in September I sent this message to an incredible running friend of mine:

"Is it normal to have days when your runs just suck?  I had broke through a wall ran my fastest mile pace on a training run on Tuesday.  Today was awful.  I had not energy and my time was almost a minute off. Aggghhhh!"

Her response:
"It is SO normal! You are totally on the right track. Every runner I know has bad runs. It makes you appreciate the good ones that much more. You are doing great lady!"

She is very wise and that was just what I needed to hear.

Today's run was like that one back in September and  I will admit I am a bit disappointed.  Sure my pace was a minute over the time I ran last week and I never quite got that runner's high.  I felt icky and thought at one point I would throw up...but the important thing is I did something....fact is:

There are gonna be bad days and if you can make it through it you will be stronger for not quitting!
Each run does not have to be further or faster.   Variables are good!!  Believe me it has taken a long time for me to get that through my head.
Another friend advised,
 "Listen to your body, some days it needs to go at a slower pace and other's it is ready to go hard."
Lesson:  Let the bad go.  Keep moving and enjoy the good!!





Tuesday, February 4, 2014

My Birthday Goal and a Little Celebration!!

It is my 45th birthday today.  I set the goal that I wanted to run 4.5 miles (a little symbolic).  It was only 20 degrees and snowing, but I wasn't going to let that stop me.  I added a hat and some gloves and hit the pavement.  At some point during this run I felt pretty good and decided that I wanted more that 4.5 miles... I needed to beat my distance record and go further than I ever had which was 7 miles (and that was only once.)  It wasn't easy, but I made it 7.33 miles with a 11:26 minute/mile pace which is really good for me.
It felt great and I celebrated the fact that I just kicked my 44 year old self's butt!!
It truly was a great birthday present to myself to know that I am getting stronger and age is just some numbers!!
Then my family gave me these new beauties.  I cannot wait to try them out!!
It was a great day!
Advice for the day: ENJOY and Celebrate yourself!!