Saturday, March 29, 2014

Leading with My Heart...

This has been an incredibly crazy busy week.  I've felt that no matter how hard I try or how fast I move I cannot get ahead.  I keep falling behind in all that I do.  This morning I drug myself out of bed, got my running gear on and looked outside..RAIN and lots of it.  I wandered around for a little bit debating because I had really looked forward to an outside run.  I finally decided to just do it.  I added a hat and hit the pavement.   The rain was just a drizzle, but as I went on the drops got bigger and heavier.  I was getting soaked.  It made it hard to see.  My body became tired much more quickly. At one point my mind kept saying quit, you don't have it.  You are tired. You suck...
That is when something incredible took place...
My heart took over.  
I began to run with my heart not letting my mind (or satan) get in the way! It became a welcomed challenge.
I finished 5.12 miles with an average mile pace better than normal.
This got me thinking how often when the storms rage in upon us and things get tough, that voice enters our minds and attempts to tells us we are no good, not strong or even worthy so why keep trying.  How often do we let our mindset stop us from accomplishing a dream or anything for that matter.  It causes great fear!!
As I was coming home last night I stopped and snapped this photo.  It reminds me to look for the light in the storm.  It is there.
This is me, wet and cold, but feeling very accomplished to not only finish my run, but more importantly let my heart take over and over rule my mind's negativity. 

Lesson for today:  Sometimes we have to act in faith and let our hearts take over to get through the storms and get passed the negativity that can so often enter our minds.  Remember most of all "THE STORM SHALL PASS".

Thursday, March 13, 2014

In Those Scary Moments....

I sent all three girls out the door to school as usual this morning and then a little while received a message that I never hoped to see.
"Mom, they said Kelsee was not on the bus."
My heart stopped................................
I then pulled myself together and called the school.  I was put on hold while they checked if she was there.  It was probably only a few minutes, but it felt like forever.   Lots of things crossed my mind during that time:
What if someone took her?
If she's not there what is my next step?
Remember..What was she wearing?
When's the last time I hugged her and told her how much I love her?
and so on!!
Finally, she came back on and informed me that it wasn't that they hadn't found her, she just could not get anyone to answer the phone. She took my number and said she would call me back.  At that point I did the only thing I knew I could do...
I dropped to my knees and asked my Heavenly Father for help.
The moment I said Amen the phone rang. She was right where she was supposed to be.  My heart started to beat again and as it did the floodgate opened and the tears started to fall.  I dropped to my knees again and thanked Him for keeping her safe.  I couldn't wait for her to walk through the door, so I could hug her and tell her how much I loved her.

I had another scare this week where my mom called and I could tell in her voice something was wrong.. and
my heart stopped.....
My brother, while playing ice hockey with his family had broken his ankle and once again I did the only thing I knew to do. I dropped to my knees...
Thankfully, he had an awesome surgeon, and with some added bolts and rope (as they called it) he will have a full recovery.
     Let's say it has been an emotional week.  
In those brief scary moments I was reminded of what is really important in this life.
PEOPLE we care about and the relationships we build with them.  .  Sometimes I find myself so caught up in the trivial things of life, that I miss out on opportunities that really matter.  Like trying to get the last batch of clothes folded before I go to bed., making sure beds are made, house clean, dishes done, home cooked meal every night. Sure these are all good things, but if they don't happen all the time in the long run is it really going to matter? 
 Last night the girls and I enjoyed great dinner conversation over a bowl of  Ramen Noodles (not that I would do that all the time).  You get where I am going with this....
My point is we need to MAKE time for the people we love.  Let the trivial things go when you have opportunities to do the BEST things.
Lesson: Life is short so make sure you spend time with the people you care about let them know how you feel!! 
Needless to say my run today was full of gratitude for many blessings and for the chance to do better with my relationships, but I really would prefer no more of those scary moments!.

Friday, March 7, 2014


Back in August of 2009 my family was here to visit and my son didn't want to run this 5 mile race alone, so a few of us joined him.
(Yes that's me in the middle.)
We had a great time and have cherished memories of that day.
Who would of ever guessed that I would ever want to run a race again
Last Summer 8 of us including my Mom ran the Color Run
This is us before the race started.
We had a blast!!
A week later my sister, her husband and I ran another one.  Not sure what I was thinking running a race with all college students!! Especially at registration they said to my sister how nice that they brought their mom.  HAHA!!  Not funny!  
The start was a killer hill. I thought I was going to die! Luckily I lived to tell the story! haha!!
In December I ran another one with my sweet 12 year old. It was a record cold streak.
It was 17 degrees when the race started.
It took a good two miles to finally be able to feel our hands and feet. ( Kelsee was not a happy camper!)
At one point during this race I thought, "What in the heck am I doing?'
Then the next day I turned around and signed up for another race the following weekend.
My oldest daughter was a good sport to run it with me. (Weather was perfect!)
Well the chain reactions continues as I prepare to run my first 5K of 2014 in the morning and the 2nd the following week!!
IT'S PURE MADNESS I tell you!!
and secretly I LOVE every minute of it!
Lesson: Fight that fear and sign up for a race.  You are your only competition.  The feeling of accomplishment crossing that finish line is like no other!! JUST DO IT!!!

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Buns of.......Beach balls?

Today I decided to jump on the treadmill and try this new interval workout I had found (trying to mix it up a bit).  As I got to my first faster pace interval I felt lots shaking from behind...yes it was literally my behind shaking.  Luckily I just started laughing because I remember a something my mom had told me years ago;
She had a dream that she looked back in the mirror and saw two beach balls. They kept following her and then at some point she realized it was her butt!!  It mortified her at the time, but we laugh about it now.  The strange thing about this dream is my mom was this thin little thing and no way did her butt look like beach balls.

Isn't it crazy how our mind works.  It can totally make us think we look totally different than we really do.  I put this theory to the test today.   We all know I was feeling a lot jiggly today (those dang beach balls), more self conscious than usual and I wasn't even around anyone. 
How sad is that!!  
There is this lady that runs the neighborhood all the time.  She makes it look easy and is a beautiful  runner.  I have often watched her and thought if I only looked like that!!  Well today as I ran I pictured myself running with her form, long legs and all (even though I have very short legs.)  I thought in my mind I looked good running.  I must have been feeling pretty good because all of a sudden I hear....MOM!!  Oops I was singing out loud.  I had forgotten all about my beach ball butt!! TEST WAS A SUCCESS!!

We start to BELIEVE we are what we THINK we are!

Not that this is new information to anyone, but a good reminder.  

Lesson today: Take this test:
 Every time you look in the mirror tell yourself how beautiful you are! 
No matter how hard it may be. 
 DO IT!! 
See what happens.
Because you truly are:
Just the way you are!!